a cold heart

The girls and I are reading through the book of Ezekiel right now. While we were reading tonight, the Holy Spirit humbled me.

Ezekiel chapter 9 starting in verse 3 through verse 8:

Then the glory of the God of Israel went up from the cherub on which it had been, to the threshold of the temple. And He called to the man clothed in linen at whose loins was the writing case. The Lord said to him, “Go through the midst of the city, even through the midst of Jerusalem, and put a mark on the foreheads of the men who sigh and groan over all the abominations which are being committed in its midst.” But to the others He said in my hearing, “Go through the city after him and strike; do not let your eye have pity and do not spare. Utterly slay old men, young men, maidens, little children, and women, but do not touch any man on whom is the mark; and you shall start from My sanctuary.” So they started with the elders who were before the temple. And He said to them, “Defile the temple and fill the courts with the slain. Go out!” Thus they went out and struck down the people in the city. As they were striking the people and I alone was left, I fell on my face and cried out saying, “Alas, Lord God! Are You destroying the whole remnant of Israel by pouring out Your wrath on Jerusalem?” - Ezekiel 9:3-8 

Am I that person? Would I receive a mark from YHWH? Would I be spared? Do I weep and mourn over other people's sin?

To be sure, it annoys me (other's sin). It even angers me at times. But do I ever cry over it? Do I weep because I know the destruction it brings? Do I weep because they are choosing damnation?

Sadly, I must admit that I don't. I've been hardened to their choices and though I greatly disagree with them I throw my hands up and say, "Whatever. It's your life and your choice to follow the path to hell." And then I go on with my life and care less that they choose death (because they refuse to listen to the only One who can give them life).

This ought not be! I ought to be like my Savior, weeping over Jerusalem because they refuse to listen.

Jesus help me! Give me a heart of flesh. A heart like You, that weeps for the sinners.